Heartless

She's known as the Heartless One.

Which may sound funny,

But no kidding, she really can be One.

She doesn't give a care in the World.

But yes does selectively care.

She wants to be the Explorer.

But oh well, her lazy ass intervenes.

She can be sober yet so high on life

that you can't guess whether she

really is Drunk or Not?

She's your bleh, "Bitch Please!"

yet she remains the Entertainer.

She had look at you with that 

smug face and you well God

bless your Timid Soul then.

You can't piss her off

because you'll never be worth it.

She could talk all day but

Silence is what her Heart really Craves.

She's the"I Don't Do Drama" woman,

But can really class you in her kinda Dramatics,

You won't want to miss it.

You can place her into any Crowd,

But she will always Stand Out.

Epiphany

She was within a crowd of people she knew yet didnt know.
She felt everything was blur but she knew better.
She felt broken, numb and not so human,
Yet she she was human enough to be alive
And fake a smile all the time.
Her world's most important part was gone like a wind.
Yet she was alive amidset the world of missing parts.
She wished to rewind the days and just get another chance.
SHE WILL WAIT FOR.....

Complexity and Love...... #Part1

This story is about Maya and Mathew.. And it is told through Maya's eyes...

The day you went it all started then...
The time had come for me and Mathew to walk towards separate paths of our careers....
But still we didnt let anything get in between us...Our bond was too strong to be broken by the distance put between us....
but as time passed by..
I started getting the fear of losing Mathew... but things were going way different than before, i didn't let fear get to me...

One day, I finally asked him,"Do u really Feel for me?"..... Mathew said "No."I made my decision tht we need to keep it thinkng as frnds and nothing else.... I started talking to more guys and always told Mathew wat i did, whom i was with, etc. He was  Jealous or was it jst my Thinking.... Mathew  never really told me what he felt, he was all concealed in himself, why i still don't get it... and here he cals me his best friend n i feel, i don't even know him completely.....whom ever i talked to or be with... bt al i wanted was to be with Mathew ...I didnt tel him, i still felt for him... i kept suppressing my feelings so that i didnt mess things up.

After almost 3 months, the day came when we met again...
I was so eagerly waiting  for this day.. since he had told me he would coming  back...
He was bit late as always... seeing Mathew was a delight after so long, i was so happy tht i didnt realise i was looking so stupid.... things were some wat same, we talked about our lifes and all.... all this time talking, i was trying to hide my feelings....
Then he asked for a Hug for the First. I couldn't deny, becoz this was de first time he had asked something from me....
We hugged.... when i started to break the hug... Mathew caught me by surprise and he kissed me, i didnt knw it had be coming...
but i knew Mathew didn't do things Meaninglessly....

P.S. all the characters and story is fictional.

 #continue in next part....

W@(_|< @W@¥

The moment you said I will WALK AWAY now.. my tears couldn't stop, they flowed like a stream... I just couldn't imagine being without you.. till the time you said it all.. I decided to say it all or I will never will be able to... I couldn't stop myself as my heart was commanding the words out of me.. I said as much as I could but there was so much more to tell... after all of it, you just said one word,  FORGIVE... but I didn't know what I had to say to it... this isn't the first time we were talking like this.. but this was the time he thought I wanted him to leave.. n he said I will WALK AWAY...

Choose !!!

When you don't know.. what to do?? what to choose??
A whole lot of things go on in your mind... that's the time when the confusion hits you bad.. about whether to choose what your brain chooses or whether to choose what your heart chooses...
You just scribble around thinking and trying to choose the best...
Some people say brain makes the best choose.. and some say heart makes the best choose...
But only ended up choosing the choose the heart had made....
Whether what you think or do.. the heart made the decision way back and you keep on following that choice....

14/11

14/11/1991 was the day
she was born
with tiny little
hands and legs.
Restlessly moves her
hands and legs in the air.
And cries & tries to get
a glimpse of her mother.

14/11/1999 was her
8th birthday.
She was crankily
asking her father
for a barbie doll.
And she had presumably
grown tall.
She had dressed up like
a princess going to a ball.

14/11/2007 was her
16th birthday.
She had crossed 3 years
of teenage.
With latest trends,
fashion & accessories
in her wardrobe.
She was ready to have a
ramp-walk to show the
world what she was.

14/11/2011 is her
20th birthday.
She is an adult now
with many responsibilities
trying to show her abilities.

She is short,
she is cute,
she is little Ms. Attitude.


Written in November, 2011
Dedicated to all the girls born on 14/11/1991

Understanding!!

Understand the true...

Understand the false...

Understand the man...

Understand the woman..

Understand the infant...

Understand the child

Understand the teenager...

Understand the adults...

Understand the old..

Understand the dead...

Understand the poor...

Understand the rich..

Understand the words..

Understand the thought behind the words..

Understand the views...

Understand the perspective behind the views..

Understand the feelings...

Understand the expression..

Understand the touch..

Understand the desire...

Understand the need...

Understand the want...

Understand the real...

Understand the fake..

Understand yourself...

       Then try and

Understand the others...

Knock¡¡¡

"Knocked on a door...
Knock knock!!!
Door opens....
I talk with the person for a minute..
He asks me to wait...
But never comes back...
Indirectly, shut the door on my  face¡¡¡
So why do they open the door only when not interested? ??"

She enters the new world... her college.. she being a bit shy person in an environment of new people.. feels lonely... but she tries to mingle with people there.. in the orientation they have a talent show... she likes singing.. and she is assigned in a group... she tries to hide her worries of being embarrassed.. of not being liked by the people... of not being able to fit in with others... but all her worries slowly go... when she makes a friend that to guy(not a big deal for her as had guy friends in school as wel but she had not expected her first friend to be a guy)... who is always there... supports her... helps her... they do wel in talent show... but as the session starts.. she gets to know alot about every1 and spclly about tht guy... everyday they would give chocolates to each other.. they became very good friends.. but one day.. when she was waiting for him on lunch... he never came back to her.. because he had new and better friends than her... she understood he was only with her till the time he had more friends and which he thought were way better than her... she  was angry... annoyed.. pissed and again lonely....
And thats when she asked..
'So why do these kind of people open the door only when not interested? ??'

Poem: Don't Know

Don't know what to believe and what not to¡¡
Don't know what to think and what not to¡¡
Don't know what to say and what not to¡¡
Don't know what is real and what is not¡¡
Don't know what is mine and what is not¡¡
Don't know what is love and what is not¡¡
Don't know what is death and what is not¡¡
Don't know who to trust and who not to¡¡
I just know that I me myself is only what anyone will know !!!!

Daddy's gal

Till the age of 13.. a girl thinks.. her daddy is the only true man in her life... but as she grows and is exposed to the words..friendship..relationship..romance...ego..love.. she learns and gets to know that daddy is not the only man.. there is a lot guyss around her..
Then she makes friends.. out of which are few guys.. bt one is different..he was smart outrageous and cool..she  gets to know him.. they are the good friends.. then in one crisis.. he is the only one who helps.. supports and stands by.. then they started sharing everything about their lifes and slowly  become best buddies who no one could crack.. then he started behaving differently..then on one valentine's day he proposed her.. she said yes.. he used her n went off... she was broken.. thn again she met someone... with whom she could relate.. bt he also used her n went off....she went to through a mental crisis.. and her daddy was the 1st to support her then her frnds... Aftr al this... she realised.. all this.. from her birth to her 1st walk.. to her 1st day in skul..to her al ghe exposures she had... all by her side was only one  man standing.. supporting and trying to understand her... is her "Daddy".. who will be on  her side til every moment possible, in her life..
Be a Daddy's Gal¡!¡!

Firki- reminder of innocence!!

When we all were 5 years or so, all of us have played with a firki ( a mini windmill toy, that every indian kid has played with).
Went to dilli haat after a long time, and seeing the firki all around reminder of childhood, carefree  fun, happiness, and all these feelings of joy got evoken.
Seeing the colors flow with the wind, made me wonder where and when did the time flee of those carefree, joyfull days of innocence ??
Those times when only playing around was all we did.. when our parents would run behind us to fed.. when our parents were our only friends.. when life was a simple cycle of playing, eating and sleeping.... when the biggest thing that could happen with us was if we got lost... when our world only consists of our parents..
Firki for me is reminder of innocent childhood we have had, which each one of us wishes to have back at least once in life..
Time flies.. but gives the memories to cherish¡¡¡

Poem: Love

Love Love Love 
what is love??
a mere attraction
or a chemical reaction.
Every girl dreams to 
find  her love but
does she find it
is a mere question now.

Love Love Love 
what is love??
an infatuation or
just a word.
People say love
has no limits 
not even age.

Love Love Love 
what is love??
a feeling that can't be 
described or a phase.
People spend their whole
life chasing love.
in the end the one thing
they truly get is mere
pursuit of love.

Love Love Love 
what is love??
anything or everything 
or just an emotion.
Love is a word,
an obsession that
cant be understood 
so easily.

Love Love Love 
what is love??
a question that has
not yet been answered.

Really??

think the way you like!!!!

" Every person has a different perspective.. and you cant judge them for it."
We all have the freedom to think the way we want... but then why do we counter question others about their thinking and perspective.. when we don't want others to question ours..
So think again... n let others think..
Jst live the way you want....n let others live...
Bt don't worry what others think of you.. and think about others... as well..